my sabbath

Today, I learned a very important lesson. Worry is a sin and is a waste of time. I know worry is wrong but it seems like at times, worry just creeps up in my soul. I felt quite down today. Desi and I have decided to try to have a child. I found out i was not pregant. I know It should not bother me becuase I have a great job and am doing so well in graduate school, but a part me wants to be a mother. I want to hold and carefor my child. I do not care if it is a boy or girl, I just cannot wait to love it. :) I broke down in tears on the phone with my mom. As we prayed, I realized that God has a plan. It is a plan that is set and more wonderful then anything i could have ever dreamed. The Lesson I learned today was to trust the Lord. Worrying cannot add anything to my day! I just pray that i can have children. I have many health problems and will be going to see a specialist. I know the Lord will will be done!